it would probably be better if we were strangers...

i had a bit of a strange moment last night as i was waiting for the holiday to start, i decided to watch the old trailers cos i'm cool like that and really like them and just yeah and i ended up typing loads of crap into my phone to put on here because let's face it, this just gets neglected  lately, so this is what i came up with...

'random mess in brain (best title ever by the way!)
i just watched the trailer for atonement and remembered when you were the most romantic person i'd ever come across. you made me believe in beauty, love, romance and purity and then there were the darker times when you made me see misery and upset and heart ache but all of this aside, no matter what was going on it was always insanely romantic. this is utterly stupid on so many levels and it was probably destined to end like this, by this i mean you leaving me like this and i understand why you did and blah blah blah and all the rest of it but i just cannot comprehend it. in my heart of hearts i do not understand where the love went, where the romance and passion went. i cannot understand that. did it never really exist in the first place or does it just catapult into nothingness? it has to be something along these lines because my god, i certainly don't feel the enveloping buzz of being close to you anymore and i doubt i ever will again. well done atonement, well done.'

i'm not some upset wreck by the way, just thought i'd get that point well and truly across, i dunno really, it just hit me, where does it all go?!