25 April, 2010

Grrrr...

I like you a lot, lot, think you're really hot, hot...

18 April, 2010

when i'm waiting for you to reply

i miss you, i mean i REALLY miss you.
Me, Poll, Emily, Rhi and Nic Nic went to see Dear John today. Parts of it were really, really good and I cried and everything but towards the end and the ending itself were just ridiculous, made me really angry...
These quotes on the other hand, hello...

"I’ll think about you everyday. Part of me is scared that there will come a time when you don’t feel the same way, that you’ll somehow forget what we shared."

&

"Our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can’t believe ours didn’t go on forever."

Lovely, just pissing lovely.

17 April, 2010

WE'RE BACK!


I forgot how surreal this place is, I love it so much.





It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain, as if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain, there'll be no last chance or promise to never mess it up again, just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk, as i'm watching you walk away and now you're gone it's like an echo in my head and I remember every word you said. It's a cruel thing you'll never know all the ways I tried, it's a hard thing faking a smile when I feel like i'm falling apart inside. 

It would have been 23 months today, well, yesterday, the 16th.
C'est la vie.
I miss you though x


05 April, 2010

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know i've used this picture before but I love it, I don't know why but I don't need a reason.
I like doing things without reason. I like doing things with reason.
I love my friends and family more than anything. I love you a lot more than I care to admit, even to myself. 
I like music that reminds you of something or someone. I like Florence! I like cats, seriously, it's worrying. I like helping people. I like university. I like parties. I like sleeping. I like alcohol. I like cocktails. I like boys. I like girls. Problem? I couldn't give a toss babe. I like sandwiches. I like films a stupid amount. I like reading, books that take aaages or books that I can read in a day. I like letters. I like glamour magazine and have chosen that over buying lunch many, many times. I like texting. I like my ipod. I like long walks by myself listening to music. I like my own space. I like being around people. I like showers. I like baths. I like lamps. I like looking out of my window at home on really clear days and being able to see the outline of the main bit of Manchester. I look coming home after being away for a while. I like ice lollies. I like meeting new people. I like staying in touch with people that i've known for ages. I like swimming. I like Michael Buble, Paolo Nutini, Gerard Butler, Brandon Flowers, Ryan Reynolds and Justin Timberlake. I like Florence Welch, Zooey Deschanel, Eva Longoria, Katy Perry and Jennifer Aniston. I like fruit and vegetables. I like crisps, probably more than chocolate you know. I like Manchester. I like Liverpool. I like lots of places. I like men in suits. I like camping. I like Danni Minogue more than Cheryl Cole. I like juice. I like fizzy drinks. I like it when things are good at home. I like BBQ's. I like the build up to Christmas. I like my memories. I like photographs. I like Lady Gaga, she no longer scares me, I just think she's immense. I like the colour orange. I like money for the simple fact that it makes things easier, I hate that though. I like Nicole Kidman, she's my favourite actress everr. I like knowing that i'm from a place where some of the best music in the world has come from. I like last minute things. I like things that have been arranged for ages. I like picnics. I like sweets. I like kisses. I like hugs. I like freckles. I like m&s adverts, strange I know. I like Leona Lewis and the fact that everyone I know seems to hate her just makes me like her even more. I like peanut butter. I like takeaways. I like sounding obese, clearly. I like my diary. I like writing. I like scribbling. I like rubbish tv. I like gerberas. I like lillies. I like shopping, not as much as other people though, I tend to get a bit stressy/scary. I like buying dvds. I like people who can play instruments, it makes me very jealous though. I like remembering bands that I used to be obsessed with. I like finding new bands to be obsessed with. 

bestttt


i'm pretty sure that in years to come i'm gonna turn around to this wonderful human being and go;
"oi, gnome, where's the cat food?"
cos we will be chilling in our house of cats...
that and;
"i love you. you look out for me 24/7. you tell me how it is even when i don't want to hear it and you always have and for that, i thankyou."


:) 

I am a passenger and I ride and I ride.

I'm in such a random mood, I think the mix of emotions that i've been going through over these past couple of weeks have finally fused together and it's turned into me becoming more of a freak than I was in the beginning, brilliant, wonderful, super.

I keep going through weird motions of things. It's making me a bit mad to be honest, one second i'll be like I DON'T DESERVE THIS ARGHH and then i'm like, ohhhhno, it's my fault. Basically it's becoming a bit of a bore, it turns out i'm pretty impatient and I have idea how to handle myself. Again, brilliant, wonderful, super. Emotions = trouble, trust me on that one kids.

I just had some weird voice over thing in my head of Emily (gotta love her!) going "WHEN ALL THE SHIT HIT THE FAN!" :') I'm not sure why but it made me giggle, ah, i'm so easily amused.

I've had a pretty good few daaays :) All the girls got together and went to Leicester for Nic Nic's 19th which was rrreally good, pretty messy but isn't it always? I had such a good time, it was really nice to just forget things for a while and being back with all the girls after what felt like forever was goooood.

Hm. What else has been going on? Oh yeah, Cat turned 18 :)) I stayed at Naomi's aswell which basically turned into one of our stupidly long in depth conversations, lovely jubbly. We had Geri Halliwell times with Rabdy and Noel aswell :') Obviously.

It's Easter today. Dull as a bitch. My mama is still on holiday. My nana and grandad are on holiday. My dad and Owen had some lunch somewhere. Hayley went to Burger King or a drug den or something, I don't really know and don't want to ask, bless her. I stayed with Noel and had a pie. Sick. I watched > Celebrity Mr and Mrs. Come dine with me x about 47. Deal or no deal EASTER SPECIAL. Freaky Friday (old version). Summer Magic (I love Hayley Mills!). Charlie and the chocolate factory (new version, not bothered, i'd still do Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka.) My sweet 16 (spoilt bastards, seriously, some of them get me so angry.). That crappy new Ant and Dec thing, Push the Button? Ohhh no. Eastenders (worst acting ever, it makes me so happy.). What Katie did next. I'm not too sure how I managed to watch all of them, I was skipping between channels a LOT. So yeah, fun really. Then I had what can only be considered an emotional breakdown and ended up walking round Ladybarn Park. Again. Only twice this time. I got in, my dad went a bit crazy at me for being miserable and full of an attitude, made me feel rrreally bad and I was really sorry but instead of saying it I just bit his head off some more, well done Tash, well done. Had a takeaway. Had a bath. Joy at my life.

This is all getting a little bit silly nowww.